My sleep issues are like a bizarre roller coaster — not the thrilling kind, but the one where you get stuck at the top and just want to get off. Most nights, I’m wide awake at 3 a.m., staring at the ceiling, contemplating life, because sleep simply won’t come. And then there’s my trusty CPAP machine — this contraption that’s supposed to help me breathe better. It’s like a life-support system for my sleep, if only I could get to sleep in the first place!
So what’s life like for a perpetually tired insomniac with sleep apnea? Well, here’s a little inside scoop.
1. Trying to Sleep...With All the Gear
First, there’s the CPAP machine — imagine strapping a miniature vacuum cleaner to your face and being told, “Just relax and drift off!” Then there’s the insomnia — the brain that’s somehow on caffeine even when it’s not. It’s like trying to meditate in the middle of a concert.
2. The Never-Ending To-Do List
Now, throw in a packed schedule, a few dozen responsibilities, and a tendency to say "yes" to everything. Being tired? That’s nothing new. But it’s a different game when you’re running on fumes day after day. From work to family, I try to stay on top of it all, but let’s be real — I could use a nap. Or five.
3. A Much-Needed Self-Care Makeover
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that self-care isn’t a luxury — it’s a necessity. Sleep is just one part of it, but there’s so much more I can do to help myself feel almost human. Here’s what I’ve been working on to regain some energy and peace in this crazy life:
Prioritizing Rest: It sounds simple, but prioritizing a real break — not scrolling through Instagram breaks, but unplugged, guilt-free rest breaks — makes a huge difference.
Exercise: It’s a struggle to make time for it, but even a gentle walk can help. Just getting my body moving, taking in fresh air, and feeling my feet on the ground brings a little bit of peace.
Breathwork and Meditation: These are great ways to calm my mind before bed. I’ve been trying out different apps, and even if they don’t knock me out, they help me feel less wired.
Hydration and Healthy Eating: I try to stick to a simple but nutritious diet, focusing on things like fruits, veggies, and plenty of water, even if I feel like a zombie.
So, Here’s to All My Fellow Tired People
Living with insomnia and sleep apnea is no small feat, but you’ve got this. We’re all juggling so much, and some days are harder than others. Self-care isn’t selfish, and if you need a CPAP machine to help you sleep (or a gentle nudge to get yourself back on track), don’t hesitate. This journey might be a little bumpy, but one thing’s for sure — we’re all in it together.
So tonight, let’s raise a (sleepy) toast to better rest, even if it’s one small step at a time.